Yesterday was rough.
I was cranky, the kiddos were still off-kilter from the lack of schedule over Yule and Christmas, the house was a mess…
Last night I was able to “gear down” and plan today and remind myself to respond not react.
This morning was a little bit of a challenge, as I woke up with a very distracting headache, but one of my kids helped me SO much by playing this song for me. It’s one I really like to listen to when I need to remember my priorities; I like to listen in the mornings, or when things get rowdy.
From what I understand, “Ronan” was a little boy who died of cancer and Taylor Swift wrote this song after reading his mom’s blog. I cry every. single. time I hear it, but it’s so good for me. I really cannot imagine going through watching your child die, and I want to see the precious in every minute I get with mine – even the hard ones!
So often, I have a heart full,
a mind full,
things to say,
things to ask,
things to just dump so I can look at them and maybe in the future, figure out what on earth they are and what I should do with them.
But I hesitate.
I’m just not sure.
This post at least shows me that someone else wonders the same things.
I don’t know what conclusion I’ll come to:
whether I’ll begin just typing it all out anyway,
or even just quit blogging altogether.
I know that some say
“walk in the light” (I will be posting more on “walking in the light” soon…)
but there are other things to be considered…
the tightrope between what some say:
“But recently, I’ve realized that it is MY story. MY life.”
and what others have to say about that, here:
not that all the things I’m hesitating over are the “deep, dark, skeletons-in-the-closet” type things mentioned in the comments there, but just wondering about the line between being transparent and airing dirty laundry. Because the things that happen, do happen to and shape me, but they also involve others who may not desire the transparency and openness in that area…
Just what I’m thinking about lately…
"They (children, when grown) will remember the good."
"They will remember the bad."
So which is it?
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Not really, but I *am* pleased :0)
My hard drive in my cute little netbook that my sweet, generous husband bought for me has a bad sector, and about a month or so ago I (unhappily) discovered it. I’ve learned the lesson in the past to be a “backer-upper”, and am usually pretty good about backing things up. I’m even moving toward having *two* backups of everything, in case one of my external drives fails.
But, wouldn’t you know, Read the rest of this entry
will I wake to the rush and the long long list of things I should get done, and will I listen to the ticking of the clock that whispers “hurry, hurry, so much to do, you’re getting behind…”
or will I wake to the chance to:
listen to my children’s hearts when they start their words with “Mama,”
hear the words of life as they dance before my eyes on the page that I am so privileged to own, and let them mold me
speak words of “I cherish you” instead of “this toilet needs scrubbing more than you need listening to”
ponder this gift called Life and all the rich depth it contains, which becomes emptier yet heavier when we aren’t looking into what it *really* is underneath all the dust that is layered on it by the daily bustle of carrying it around? Read the rest of this entry